Gone!

A strange feeling has come over me of late.. Its been a few months now and i can't get him out of my head..the thoughts just stick.

I can't honestly say its the first time I've felt like this. I've had other people stick in my head too.. But not like him, no one has been able to make an impression as fast as him. He is funny and smart and articulate while being completely looney! There isn't a single conversation i've had where he hasn't had me in peels of laughter:D- i can still laugh with the same intensity at his wise crack that is now so old its probably growing things on it.. I admire his love for life, his ability to stay smiling in the face of pain and disappointment-Anger is an emotion i don't believe he possesses for if he does he controls it remarkably well.

He isn't too much of a talker- but get him started and you're in for some incomparable entertainment..

He isn't the best looker either-his nose seems wildly out of proportion when compared to his eyes and his tummy could certainly do with a tuck.. A few inches in the height area wouldn't hurt either :P.. He almost waddles when he walks and yet something about him comforts me.. It makes me feel safe it leaves me feeling familiar-without the goose bumps that present themselves along with an unsettling dizziness everytime there has to be a change. I miss him..even his being around if only just in the vicinity used to allow me to breathe easy. I looked forward to seeing him smile only because it made me smile.

The man displays an unnatural ability of being extremely independent and yet completey grounded. Family is hugely important (they seem wonderful too btw) and the ease with which the members get along with each other is actually enviable- the kind that makes you want to be a part of it..

He had become my family.And then again..Its odd how things change.. I don't know what happened.. But i was no one..

Change can be fast-sudden-like removing a band-aid..it takes a while for the pain to kick in but when it does it Hurts!! Or change can be slow-the kind that gets you in your sleep.. You never wake up to feel it.. I think my change is slow.. And i hope i never wake up to feel it..